Friday, February 4, 2011

I really do not feel like I make you happy anymore. And it's not because I don't love you, like you seem to think. It's because everytime when I don't ask "how high?" when you say "jump!" you blow it out of proprotion. There was no reason for you to not speak to me at all last night. I did nothing wrong. You never mentioned you needed a ride until I got home and was ready to jump in the shower. You could have asked for a ride when I got home when you texted me to say you were going to ------. When I texted you to say I was leaving work, you could have said something, and you didn't. Instead you waited until I was literally getting in the shower after I got home and then when I asked you to see if ----- could give you a ride since he was leaving anyway, you made a big deal out of it, and proceeded to not talk to me all night, or this morning, or most of today.

I love you, but I'm tired of not feeling validated. I'm tired of feeling like a personal taxi service. I'm tired of you never being able to accept that you're partially to blame when we get upset with each other. I'm tired of it always being my fault, because it's not.

1 comment:

LonelyGuyGettingBy said...

You always made me happy. In the worst of times you always brightened my day. Even when we fought it was just because I loved you so much and didn't feel I was enough for you, and still being with you made me happy. Even after these months, you make me happy. I may not be able to show it due to how broken I am. But you always made me happy. I wish that you could say the same. I wish I had been better to you. I wish I could make things right. I wish I could prove to you I'd do anything to fix this, you are my love, forever and always. I am sorry I did this. I love you.