Yay for the school fixing their mistakes! That's over with, and I'm assuming I feel better. I'm not looking forward to going home for Thanksgiving and being guilt tripped into feeling bad about fighting with Mom. I'm really only going home to save myself $10 and two hours on the train (hopefully, anyways).

Kris and I went out for dinner last night and watched movies here since Faith isn't here this weekend (or I'm assuming, her stuffs here, but I havent' seen her since noon-ish yesterday).

I really need to get motivated to apply for jobs and stuff. We were talking last night about wanting big-girl jobs just so we can buy stuff, like the ultimate expensive bags , sunglasses, heels, cliche little black dresses. We are le ridiculous.

www.itischristmas.com Why are they playing holiday ads already? I should be excited, because I like Christmasy stuff like hot chocolate, and cookies, and the way the tree smells, and shopping, and warm clothes, and fires in fireplaces, and decorations and candles, and lights, and music, but it's just making me sad.

After the meeting on Friday, the A&S dean asked me what my plans for after graduation are. I said something about finding a job, but really that I didn't know. She asked if I had been to the career development center, and if I hadn't, that I should stop by and get help with resumes and stuff. I told her that I would be ok, somehow, since everything I develope falls apart anyway, and left. This after I told her that my mom would prefer hearing that they fixed their mistake from her and not me, which I had to convince her of since she assumes that everyone who goes to this school comes from rich, loving, happy families.

I am such a mess. While not stressed out, and feeling happier than I have in the last week, I'm still such a mess. I think I just hide it all too well.